Blue Like Jazz

So I just finished reading Blue Like Jazz today. The last two chapters really hit me hard, when I was reading I felt that I was reading about my struggles and things that I need to work on. One of the chapters was talking about loving yourself and that is something that I struggle with. Don Miller also talks about how you have to be accepting of love from others and when you love yourself you can accept if from others and a really good quote that really struck me was: "God's love will never change us if we don't accept it." Wow, that is powerful, God always is and always has been offering his love to us, but until we accept it won't change us.

In the last chapter it is talking about Jesus and knowing Jesus, he talks about what it would be like to be with Jesus when he was with his disciples and how we would listen to him and see the lines on his face. I want to be sitting around a fire with Jesus listening to his stories and his wisdom and looking at his face so closely that I can see the lines.
After that, he jumps into talking about how Jazz was invented out of slavery and that they slaves could not put into words what they were feeling so they made this music. He then goes on to ask: "What song will you sing when your soul gets freed?" Which is a good question, but for me especially it struck me even more, because I feel that right now I have a wall up, not allowing God into my inner soul and during a prayer he relieved to me that He is working to break down that wall and when I read this question it made me so excited to finally have that day when I truly allow God in and see what song I will sing :)